Lets go to Iluma catch bear bear!

June 28, Sunday

小鬼 bday celebration.

Waterbombs after knock off(luckily I left early with Meizhu:p), then they went to have fishhead steamboat, lucky me and Meizhu skipped that, if not I guess we'll be filthy like them lol. :D

Meizhu and I went to Iluma to pass time while they're having steamboat and also to catch a teddy bear for Ghost as her bday present. Spent quite a reasonable amt la.. Haha.. Catching bears was fun, but it got kind of irritated when u can't get it. Haha :x

Xiao Gui's bday bear and my bear lol :x

We joined them when they reach Topone, but end up we went to Kbox cos we thought Kbox was only $10++, who knows.. the promotion end liao. :[

All of us didn't really sang, most of the time we were playing dice, I mean 'they'. I just kept drinking laughing and seeing them play haha..

(Okay, I dunno why the shit I do that shit facezxzx-,-)

Went home at around 4am.


June 29, Monday

HAPPY BDAY TO 小鬼!!~

Can't wake up on time for work. Only reach workplace at ard 3.30pm :x I'm hopeless I know.
I asked Ay some things, but his answers were really... not answers. -,-
Within the month of June, a lot of things happened between me and him. The changes were.. really great. So much of ups and downs.

On the first of June, I ended our more-than-just-normal-frens r/s, by smstelling him we should just be frens, cos I think we're nt suitable for eachother. Although I sort of rejected him already, but I'm still thinking of himall the time, I miss the time when he calls me at ard 12.30am to chat with me and Imiss how he always call out to me when I walk past his shop. All of those'misses' ended after I told him 'lets be friends'.

On the mid of June, I once asked him to wait for me to go home tgt. I can see.. frmhis expression.. how happy he was.. and when we were on the train, I can alsosense his happiness. I thought I really meant a lot to him. He kept wanting meto acc him for supper, but I didn't want to. So he called me after we reachedhome, what we talked abt was all nt impt, just this one sentence from him, makeme want to try it out with him really really much. He said "if you still like meand want to be with me, I'll still want to." . That's what he said, he reallysaid that to me. At that point of time, I still can't decide, so I didn't gavehim an ans to whether I still like him or not.

Now, it's the end of June. He belongs to another girl. Few days ago when Ireally decided that I want to be with him, I took the initiative to ask him towait for me to go home, he say cnt. I msged him, no replies. I didn't take ittoo hard cos the following day he told me that he slept already. When I askedhim smth, his ans were totally like.. dunno how to say, might as well I dun askthat kind of ans. So I started to sense that he doesn't really like me that muchanymore, thus all I need was just one sentence from him.. "I don't like youanymore", that's all I need to make me put it down and get it over with. I called andasked from him, but he didn't want to say it, he hang up and sent me amsg, saying he already got a girlfriend. He called back after a while, Iasked for that sentence over and over agn like a lunatic, getting reallyirritated fed up and finally.. sadness overcame it all and I hang up.Broke down, forced down the fucking awful tigerbeer I found in the fridge whichI would never ever drink. Msg friends to tell them this devastating news, I need alot of comfort at that time, Jamie told me 哭了就算了，不要每天为他掉泪。It really helps a lot a lot..

Fell asleep in slight dizziness at around 2am.


June 30, Tuesday

The moment I open my eyes when I wake up, it's him. Memories and all flash back like those dramas. I kept telling myself, I've already cried my hearts out ytd, today I must nt be sad anymore, he's nt worth it.

Went for work happily while msging frens.. Told Xiao Gui what happened and while talking, I cried agn. It's funny like, she works at Messy for ard 3mths only but I think she have already seen me crying for more than 3times already lol I've been crying too much I think.. Everyone who knows felt sad for me, so I tried to make myself looked like I'm really REALLY happy throughout the whole day, but I think I gt too tired in the night, so I quiet down a bit.


I avoid looking at him when I past by his shop(if he's standing outside), I managed to avoid, but just once.. when I was talking to Uncle at his shop, he called out to me, I looked at him but just continue talking to Uncle. :\

I thought he was different, I thought he was a good guy, honest, serious, mature, but who knows, he's just another bastard from the bastard clan. Well, guess all the guys are from that clan, no exceptions. It really amazed me, how fast a person can change, it's nt even 2wks since he told me that "I still want", now... Haha.. How idiotic I am is really unimaginable. Feel like a fool when I think abt how much I trusted him.

So now I'm gonna tell myself.. July is a new mth for me, no more Ay story no more heartbreak thing, I'm nt gonna trust guys anymore, they're nt worth to be trusted too, nt gonna get so serious anymore, guys are all bastard.

A new happy July starts now! :D

After work went to Iluma arcade with colleagues, me and Xiao Gui got ourself Mickey and Minnie! :D Spent $5, I think. Ghost only spent $2! D:

My Minnie, Ghost Mickey.

July 1, Wednesday
Off-day!

(Actually I can cut my hair so short right, looks not bad.)

Met up with Teresa at around 5pm, went to Dhoby Ghaut to buy my fabric paint, then took train to Bugis. Went over to Iluma to have our dinner at one of the Japanese Resturant. Teresa rushed off to her school while I went to Bugis St, my second home. Haha.. Lame shit. Chat with friends there while waiting for Teresa to come back from her school which will be around 9pm lol. Most of the time were spent with Glossy, cos she's very bored. Haha..

Glossy & I, you won't believe she's a mummy le! Her daughter is damn cute!

Teresa come back already I showed her the girl, then she also dunno go where, I just stay at St argue with Weiqiang abt guys cnt be trusted thing, lol. In the end I realised I was contradicting myself in some parts, but overall, it's still the same sentence, no guys can be trusted. Fuck them, hur! D:

Went to Iluma catch bear bear with Evon, Reno and Weiqiang, oh Teresa tagged along too. Met Belle and Olivia at Iluma also, so Teresa kind of stay with them and I kept following Evon walk to and fro see people catch and she catch. Oh ya, saw Ay at Iluma, Reno saw him first, he told me then just nice Teresa and I wanted to go buy drinks also, so I rushed to see if he's with the gf, but sway sway when we rushed towards the lift, he came out frm the toilet and saw us-,- I straight away pull Teresa turn to the escalator, super awkward! :[ He called out to me but I didn't answer, I just kept walking off. :\ Went to 7-eleven, saw him sitting outside of LJS, guess he's waiting for the gf. Sigh.. None of my business actually. I-HAVE-TO-IGNORE-EVERYTHING-THAT-CONCERNS-HIM!!!

We went back, Reno and Weiqiang wanted to go eat :\ So they left first, then Teresa also left for her last train.. I stayed with Evon till 12am, last minute I spent $2 and caught a pink rabbit! Took last bus home while she waits there for her husband.

July 2, Thursday

Went to work, late agn-,-

When I walked past Ay shop, he called me, I heard my name wanted to ans, but realised is him I turn away agn. So embarrassing:[ I think I avoid until very obvious lei, lousy me:[ Then worst thing is when he called Xiao Gui, she nv ans then he ask Xiao Gui why don't ans him, she reply cos you bully my friend-,- PSPSPSPSPS SUPER PAISEH! Omg.

Worked Cosine today. Saw smth Winter drew(random), I didn't realised Messy gt so many staff until I see this.

This is not all of Messy's staff. (:
Actually I also don't bear to leave this big family, but no choice, I need to plan for my future.

After work went to Iluma with John, see people catch, cos I no money catch, then I dun wan so early go home. Took the last train home agn, reach home very late and tired, so never call Ah Hwee agn :p

Expect the unexpected, when I was going home on the bus playing my DS, I received his call. I answered, then he asked why I like that-,- Say why he call me everytime I dun ans then turn away like avoid him.. See me like that he very sad, like not friends anymore. Say is I say want to be friends with him first de ma. Ask me dun like that.. Whatever shitzxz la.. I just kept denying, saying that I was rushing/busy/didn't heard. :\ So now I wonder, how do I face him next time, if he call me.. Smile and walk away avoid conversations or just continue ignoring or just be like normal friends? Sighhh...


July 3, Friday

Mc day.

Alan asked me out for lunch, rejected. I'm now penniless. Tsk, I really need to leave this job manxzxzzxz!! If only I got money, then I can meet him, miss him so much(as a friend).

I rmb I loved him so so much when I was with him 4 or 5yrs ago lol.. and he thought I was not caring enough and we broke off. In between he broke up with me so many times before lor, everytime I just cry and cry then tell him I dun wan and ask him to patch with me haah! Thinking back I'm really fucking retard omg.

&& I'm so happy I stayed home! I received my parcel from the Blogshop! :D So happy, I bought 3itmes from that spree and I love it all! :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D

This is the jacket.

Still got one legging and a high waist skirt which I dunno I will wear or not lol.

Actually I have some videos on hand taken on Ghost's bday, but it's tilted.. :[ Shall not post it out, I'll just enjoy the videos myself haah! ;D